Too Afraid to Live

I fold my days like brittle notes

Hide them deep where no one goes

Afraid to breathe too loud, too long

I hum a life without a song

Each morning feels like something lost

A dream deferred, a line uncrossed

I walk on glass with silent feet

Avoid the flame, avoid the heat

Too afraid to fall

Too afraid to fly

So I stay beneath

An unchanging sky

Locked behind the door

I won’t forgive

I’m not dying, but

Too afraid to live

I guard in silence, water doubt

Keep all the roaring colours out

The world knocks gently, then with fire

I kill the spark, deny desire

Too afraid to fall

Too afraid to fly

So I stay beneath

An unchanging sky

Locked behind the door

I won’t forgive

I’m not dying, but

Too afraid to live

Love once came with open hands

I turned away, made no demands

Now every heartbeat’s just a sound

A clock that ticks but won’t be found

Too afraid to fall

Too afraid to try

So I let the moments wander by

A breath I hold, a life I give to the fear that says

I’m too afraid to live