Before the roads were laid in stone, Before the first great kingdoms rose, I wandered through the world alone, Where ancient rivers flow.
I wrapped lovers in the warmth of spring, And scattered blossoms where they lay, Yet even I could not prevent The years from stealing youth away.
I’ve watched the soldiers march to war, Their mothers weeping by the lane, And carried prayers across the fields For sons who’d never come home again.
I’ve watched the children laugh and play, And chased their footsteps through the grass, Then seen them grow and drift away, As generations came to pass.
For I remember every soul Who walked beneath the open sky, Each whispered hope, each broken dream, Each final breath, each last goodbye.
I, too, have mourned the ones I’ve loved, Though none have seen the tears I’ve shed; They fall as rain upon the earth, And wake the flowers above the dead.
Their laughter lingers in my streams, Their sorrow settles in the rain, Their love is written in the stars, And blooms within the earth again.
You may believe the dead are gone, That time has swept their lives away, But I have held them all within The endless turning of each day.
And when your footsteps cease at last, And silence claims your earthly name, I’ll gather all the love you gave, And keep its gentle, living flame.
I’ll place your dreams among the stars, Your laughter in the summer air, Your tears within the falling rain, So something of you lingers there.
For I am older than your sorrows, Yet young as every waking spring, The keeper of forgotten lives, The voice within each living thing.
Nothing loved is truly lost, Though all must change, and all must cease. I take what time cannot preserve, And give you back to earth in peace.
I am older now— too careful with words, too skilled at folding pain into politeness. The years have become a tide clock: ebb, work, sleep, repeat. I forget entire summers and remember only their invoices.
I have begun to lose nouns: the names of birds, the taste of a certain afternoon.
But verbs remain— to breathe, to ache, to forgive. When I walk, I still hear the child’s shoes slapping through puddles, echoes inside the bone— maybe that is enough.
Time edits gently, crossing out in pencil, not ink. Even forgetting feels like snowfall, a soft covering, a mercy for what was too sharp to keep.
You collect smooth stones, name clouds, believe the moon follows only you home. Keep that foolishness— there is a kindness in being wrong. One day you’ll trade it for precision, and precision has no mercy.
You sound tired. Do you not still run in the rain? Even old hearts have rooms for puddles. If you’re lonely, you can borrow mine— it’s small, but it fits light.
I write this to no one, and to every version of myself. The ink runs as rain will. Somewhere, a child is still laughing, and I am still learning how to answer.
Sometimes I walk past the station just to watch departures. I imagine you somewhere coastal, hair salted, voice roughened by distance. I’ve kept your mug— it stains the same way mine does.
Do you still think of the bridge, the one we never crossed?
Yes. Every night. It hums behind the noise of trains and new conversations. The bridge was shorter than I feared— but what a long fall, afterwards. I’ve learned to pack lightly, to sleep without roots. Sometimes, mid-laughter, I hear the echo of your quiet life and envy its stillness.
The sea is not freedom, only motion that never decides.
If we met again, we would recognise the same ache expressed in different tenses— you, the present; me, the perpetual leaving. Two mirrors angled to infinity, each reflecting what the other almost became.