Here Without You

Feeling the way the river flows, 
the way the wind blows - 
It goes right through me… 
Am I here, in someone else's dream? 
Do I exist at all, here without you? 
 
It came to me like a thunder cloud in blue 
to be told we are through - 
It crashed right into me. 
But still I hope for you; 
I'll always feel for you; 
I'll long for you, over and over… 
Here without you. 
 
Why do I hunger and need you so? 
Because I'm me, 
Because of you (of you!) 
Why do I hunger and need you so? 
Because I've always loved you… 
I love you. 
Why do I hunger here all alone? 
Because I've always loved you… 
I love you. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/a80FXZdUCic

Somehow

The touch of rain kisses the pain of you. 
To the bitter end, I will always be your friend. 
There's nothing I can do, 
Nowhere to be with you. 
 
On a hope and a prayer, 
On the edge of nowhere, 
I see you here in everything I do. 
I know I lost somehow - 
Before you took your vow, 
I knew that time would carry you away. 
 
Winter draws on but still I hold on, 
To thoughts of you - 
Somehow, 
Somewhere, 
My heart is lost in time… 
 
I felt you here somehow; 
I knew you knew somehow; 
I feel for you in everything I do. 
I must leave you now, somehow. 
I need you to know: 
Somehow, 
Somehow, I felt you here - 
Somehow, I knew you knew; 
Somehow, I must leave you now… 
Somehow. 
Somehow. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/HUV5x13RNIU

I Just Miss You

Your train had vanished down the track, 
left me there, not looking back. 
All I see ahead of me are seasons of mists 
numbing me, to the core - 
because you're not here anymore. 
 
I just miss you; 
I really miss you; 
Love finds a way, 
through summer and winter… 
Over mountains faraway, 
Is the song of you. 
 
I'll find the way; 
I'll find you some day… 
In a warm calm sea, 
Kissed by the dance of the sun, 
Is the lost dream of you. 
 
I just miss you; 
I really miss you; 
Love finds a way, 
through summer and winter… 
Over mountains faraway, 
Is the song of you. 
 
I have long missed you; 
I have fallen short of you. 
Every day is the same, 
looking through the rows of faces, 
in the old familiar places. 
 
I just miss you; 
I really miss you; 
Love finds a way, 
through summer and winter… 
Over mountains faraway, 
Is the song of you. 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/ED7qIJOCSK8

April Fool

I'm just a little soul, 
part of a bigger goal; 
Just give me somebody to hold. 
 
Said the fool: I've a world to rule - 
Poisoned flower's scent turned sour; 
Beauty within me bloomed and faded so fast. 
 
April fool, another broken rule; 
The sky is on the floor 
for this poor April fool. 
 
Even if the sun were bright, 
the day for us has faded to night; 
But the light now turns round and round… 
I'm falling in time with you 
again and again, once more. 
 
Put my body in your hands - 
Please don't try to understand 
(I'm twisted round and round.) 
I was always the April fool - 
April fooled, always the April fool. 
 
April fool, another broken rule; 
The sky is on the floor 
for this poor April fool. 
April fool, another broken rule; 
The sky is on the floor 
for this poor April fool. 
 
Another April fool; 
Another April fool; 
Fool, fool, April fool. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/1n7PJlwAAOQ

Night Eyes

I am absent without leave 
in ways you can’t perceive. 
Bail me out, show me what I am about: 
All hard and cold, of fool’s gold, 
in fool's paradise. 
Show me what you are about. 
Show me what I must do: 
What we must do; 
What you can do… 
 
You are the night eyes 
when I escape behind closed eyes. 
Tonight, with love, we know 
I am here with you. 
You are Night Eyes; 
I see tonight, Night Eyes, 
With you. 
 
You've been waiting, anticipating, 
what I have to say. 
You told me: 
More fool me; 
There was always, always more to see. 
But I misunderstood, 
“A little bit of what you fancy does you good.” 
Ok, I'll be as good as gold - 
Forever waiting’s over, over, over. 
 
You are the night eyes 
when I escape behind closed eyes. 
Tonight, with love, we know 
I am here with you. 
You are Night Eyes; 
I see tonight, Night Eyes, 
With you. 

 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/jfosmmTK2hU

Better Late Than Never

I know I should have been here long ago, 
but I lost my way; 
I lost my mind in circles around you; 
I'm sorry, so sorry. 
Maybe it was just another story about us, 
with words that swirl around you and me - 
Better late than never. 
 
You don't know I've been sinking in the moments 
of fear that hurt us; 
Fear stopped us, 
I lost us; 
I'm sorry, so sorry. 
I was out of sight, out of mind, miles behind, 
without a trace, fallen from grace - 
Better late than never together. 
 
Better late than never; 
In the end, we are together - 
Through time we find 
love is forever. 
Better late than never; 
Better together; 
Out of time we find 
love is forever; 
Together forever - 
Better late than never. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/7B7VNtt0dzU

Be Now

Everything can come to those who live 
and won't wait: 
Something good, something great - 
Yeah, I’m not in 
control. 
 
Rise and shine, everything's fine; 
You're all good, be as it should - 
Be now: 
The rub of the green, with no routine… 
Be now. 
 
Less is so much more; 
It hits home here, to the core - 
A bolt from the blue. 
Now I know, I know how to be, 
you free me; 
Only now I am me - 
You free me, 
I am me. 
 
Rise and shine, everything's fine; 
You're all good, be as it should - 
Be now: 
The rub of the green, with no routine… 
Be now. 
 
Love lives inside me, never asleep, 
alive and forever, 
you’re more than skin deep; 
I will never ever get lost; 
I am here and now 
forever… 
 
Now I know, 
I know how to be: 
You free me… 
Be now. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/td-uRCvlJ34

Only Love Is Real

I need to find some peace of mind - 
I watch the ride: 
A thousand eyes shining in space, 
In the beauty of you. 
 
Only love is real… 
I am now awake 
With where my heart is now - 
Now in life: 
Only you, 
Only you are real… 
Only love is real to me. 
 
Life is what you make - 
Drop the story; 
The past is what you make, 
Right now. 
Be something new 
Beyond yourself; 
In the moment, 
Only love is real. 
 
Only love is real to me - 
Only you. 
Only you are real to me: 
Only love is real. 
 
Intimate together, 
Love lasts forever -  
One heart never apart. 
 
Only love, 
Only you, 
Only you are real to me. 
Only love is real. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/_YxruLEcyHc

This Too Will Pass

Slipping and sliding, 

Commanding the tides - 

Bitter struggling against my mind. 

But nothing can last, 

This too will pass. 

 

Minds crashing and colliding - 

Anxiety, when dreaming away, 

Ignoring the lights. 

Night turns to day, day turns to night… 

The future's the past. 

Nothing ever lasts. (This too will pass.) 

 

In the stillness and the storm, 

Victory’s glowing so strong; 

It sinks down in the dark, 

Rising up to start again, 

To rust away again - 

To dust. 

 

In the end, 

Through pain and beauty, beauty and pain: 

Only love remains. 

No thing ever lasts; 

The past’s the past. 

Stories end, new dreams begin - 

Only love remains, 

Only love remains. 

 

Love moves the wind; 

Nothing stays the same - 

Floating away, away… 

With the end of the day: 

Only love remains, 

Only love remains. 

 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/9xwmOoV2T2E

Our Way Back

Our way back is 
to where we were before, 
before we started - 
Where it's taken a lifetime 
for us to be together… 
Where we departed. 
 
I’ve been a dark horse 
running from the source 
to the back of beyond, 
on an uneven course - 
Where every lost cloud was a memory 
of my way back to you. 
 
Our way back 
is there forever in our soul - 
Where I breathe with you; 
Where dreams are always true. 
Tell me now, 
What do you want me to do? 
I know that we can be together, 
Where forever is our soul; 
Our way back is forever in our soul. 
Our love is our way back. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/tILEo5KQohA

Between The Lines

I am here now for your pleasure, 
Light me up, I'm at your leisure - 
You don't know what I am thinking; 
You don't know that I am 
winking. 
 
The illusion: 
An old delusion, 
found again and lost again. 
I just missed you, 
How I missed you! 
I'm the secret hiding from you. 
 
See between the lines: 
See the signs, all around you. 
Today is our time: 
Sleepy sunshine, 
Above and beyond, 
Between the lines. 
 
Know that I see you like no other - 
I am more than just your lover. 
I am not just going somewhere -  
I am here through time 
and back 
again… 
 
I am not a number, 
I live in wonder 
now - 
You know I found it out somehow, 
Shining in the faces, 
Turning over all my pages. 
 
See between the lines: 
See the signs, all around you. 
Feel between the lines: 
Feel the signs, all around you. 
See between the lines: 
See the signs, all around you; 
Feel the signs, all around you. 
 
Today is our time: 
Sleepy sunshine, 
Above and beyond, 
Between the lines. 
 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/Iwv7wW2S78k

Journal 2022-08-06

I’m collating my lyrics from dozens of songs at the moment.

Random Thoughts:

If you drop the story in your mind for one minute, what happens? You don’t have the thoughts in your mind that distress you. You are alive, now, in this fascinatingly weird and beautiful place.

Lying is the language of Evil; an ugly, twisted distortion of truth.

Happiness is a state of aliveness - no things are needed.

It Can’t Be You

You entered, in my mind, 

so long ago, so long ago - 

Even though you were a passing shadow 

unlikely for me to see again. 

Sometimes I’d see you in my mind: 

I’d think of what you were doing, 

what you were seeing, 

what you were imagining - 

You were an unnamed figure 

floating through my mind. 

 

I saw you again the other day 

In an unexpected place. 

You answered all my questions, 

But how can I feel like this? 

It can’t be you… 

It can’t be you… 

It can’t be you. 

 

How can this happen, here and now? 

Before I’ve even started, 

I know how far I’ve got to go… 

And each day is harder than the one before 

because I can’t reach you. 

 

I saw you again the other day 

In an unexpected place. 

You answered all my questions,  

But how can I feel like this? 

It can’t be you… 

It can’t be you… 

It can’t be you. 

 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/C3sunytu2uw

Another Thing Coming

Through the window I could see 

a glimmering gaze waiting for me - 

A choice, in the noise: 

Light from afar or delight at the bar. 

One more day mind glazed; 

One more day in the shade; 

One more day of empty glasses; 

One more day for second chances - 

Fear stained memories in a cage, 

forgotten feelings in a haze, 

cold and shrill and numbing: 

Another thing coming… 

So time for home, time for bed, 

too many words have been said; 

Cold relief, short and brief, 

turning tables, writing labels, 

making time to switch (which is which?) 

One more day mind glazed; 

One more day in the shade; 

One more day of empty glasses; 

One more day for second chances - 

Fear stained memories in a cage, 

forgotten feelings in a haze, 

cold and shrill and numbing: 

Another thing coming… 

Now you’ve set me up 

in the middle of some good luck, 

with the myth: 

The iron gate of an altered state - 

Myself withheld from all my sins, 

falling down on the sharpened ground. 

The night-time cure, the magic mixture, the mystery - 

Your special power shimmers in a night-shine, 

a potion of lost emotion reflecting 

a fantasy in my head. 

One more day mind glazed; 

One more day in the shade; 

One more day of empty glasses; 

One more day for second chances - 

Fear stained memories in a cage, 

forgotten feelings in a haze, 

cold and shrill and numbing: 

Another thing coming… 

 

Words and (some) Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/Gu2y1suaZWU

A Song Within

Battles closing minds at war;

Fights the same, just as before.

Raging struggles in your way, 

surviving another day of artificial, unsubstantial

Fears full of the end.

A song within is for display -

Play it now, play it loud, play it soft;

But most of all: 

Love it all.

“Them and us, us and them” makes it easy to condemn - 

Red in tooth and claw does not have to be the law;

Anger bathed in fear only makes another tear.

Take another step, the next step, for all.

A song within is for display -

Play it now, play it loud, play it soft;

But most of all: 

Love it all.

Listen to the whisper, quiet and small: 

Light belongs to all -

But most of all:

Love it all.

 

Words and Music by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/NyXsRooziNg

Blah De Blah

Tedium… 

Tedious conversation… 

Boring repeats, heard it all before:

Blah de blah, boring blah blah,

“How dare you, what about me?”

Blah blah, blah de blah blah,

boring, blah blah blah.

The same look in the eyes, the same scripted replies:

“I’m better than, I’m more than” - comparison of facades.

Seeking, needing the outrage;

fanning the flames, finding someone to blame.

Taught behaviour, taught script:

“Look at me! Aren’t I special. Give me a biscuit!”

“My happy versus your happy;”

“Aren’t I special because I conform.”

(Spoon fed some rules.)

Blah de blah, boring blah blah,

“How dare you, what about me?”

Blah blah blah, blah de blah blah,

boring, blah blah blah.

“Everybody must have the same opinion” - 

Nobody knows everything, even about one thing:

The more I see the less I know; the more I see the more I feel.

Explanations unfold, change colour and disappear into space -

The enormity and hugeness of limitless space…

Blah de blah, boring blah blah,

“How dare you, what about me?”

Blah blah, blah de blah blah,

boring, blah blah blah.

No need to be imprisoned by a side, by a tribe - 

Each day is different, rules are for machines.

Exceptions are for you.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

 

Words by Robert Walker

https://youtu.be/ghBak0m_M_c

Journal 2022-07-17

(Writer, songwriter), (actor, singer), (art, innovation).

I have done, am doing, and will do, all this.

Writer is the first and current focus.

Acting and innovation are broad categories, comprising different activities.

Keep moving, wibble wobble rhubarb etc.

Random Thoughts

The goal with current gaps and an action plan. Has anyone done this analysis for humanity? (I mean one that is based on universal flourishing and kindness, not written by useful idiots and implemented by empowered psychopaths.)

Energy builds up internally through relentless thinking and wants to be released.

Working is more fulfilling than chilling.

Reduce work by doing it.

I am a writer. I perform for necessity or fun.

Summarise rather than simplify.

Right now, everything is probably fine. There will be challenges, and preparation for them is a good idea - but whatever they may be, this exact moment is probably fine.

Maybe a school exam question in the future: To what extent was the series of US imbecilic Presidents and broken political system responsible for the reaffirmation of totalitarianism in non-Western countries? Was this causally connected to the emergence of the Internet and social media?

Marcus Aurelius was succeeded by Commodus. As a metaphor, even philosopher kings beget tyranny.

In the totalitarian mindset, facts are attacked and suppressed if they do not conform to belief stories.

Journal 2022-07-12

Either use apps or read books of jokes, facts, quotes and vocabulary. Collated paragraphs of knowledge primers would be beneficial to learning as well.

Random Thoughts:

The past can offer lessons and warnings, but should not determine the quality of today nor the direction of the future.

These words are words. Your thoughts determine the effect on you, good or bad.

Anything great is always achieved outside of society’s expectations.

It is compassionate to be happy.

Be someone’s smile.

Journal 2022-07-09

I’m absolutely happy with the reservoirs of knowledge and culture that my phone makes available to me, including:

• Monthly subscriptions to Kindle, Audible, Spotify/Apple Music. 
• Follows of blogs, micro-blogs, video playlists and podcasts (with an option to support).

The one missing is a platform that provides the availability of any course of learning to everyone.

Random Thoughts:

Certainty is limited. Uncertainty is unbounded infinite possibility.

There was a brief interlude in the 1950s to 1990s when delusion and unfairness started to diminish. The desire for fairness has continued in this century, but people have become far more delusional and crazed, making fair outcomes less likely and opening the door to the truly vile forces that have wreaked misery through so much of history.

Are you a societal meme?

I am impossible to offend. “You’re a blancmange!” they say. Ok, well you have your opinions, and I’ll have mine.

Everyone you meet and everyone who is affected by you needs you not to be a twat.